Garden’s Project 8: Not really the Gardens Project most of the time.

Garden’s Project 8:

Not really the Gardens Project most of the time.

I’ve been meandering through the swamp since early June when I last posted, stopping and starting, changing tack and changing back, generally not having the slightest idea what I’m doing. At time like this the discipline overtakes and “doing” becomes the purpose in itself, mostly for the worse.

So I’ve kept drawing, I’m halfway through July in my sketchbook and for this month I’m working one day left handed and the next day drawing the same thing right handed.

Gardens Project 8

First pair of drawings, 30/06/21 and 01/07/21

This is the first pair of drawings for July 21, I’ll put them together as agallery at the end of the month. The key is to spend about the same amount of time drawing each page and see what happens. Drawing left handed is still hard, especially in terms of connecting with the paper – I don’t seem to be able to exert the same pressure on the page as I can with my right hand, something I obviously didn’t notice on the iPad through to May.

Onwards and upwards.

VR project wise I’ve been stymied by having to relearn modelling and upgrading my equipment. I’ve got so much data now that it took two days to back up between computers and externalhard drives. I also fitted a new SSD to my big computer and got a new laptop to use with a new Quest 2 that I’m just getting to grips with.

I think chapter one of the gardens project is pretty much outlined now, the direction is there, but the finish on all the environments is not what I want yet and the dome with floating news doesn’t give the impression I want. So I’m developing another way to navigate the space with objects that you move out of the way to progress. This will give me a better way to look at the passage of time as well I think. I also want the environment to be a lot more black and white and possibly drawn.

More to come.

I got a message about a post from 2016 regarding “Photosynth” a now defunct software, I updated the post in response and it’s here Garden in Balby – Photosynth with a link to an article that discusses the software and what happened to it.


You should always look down on a circus 2

You should always look down on a circus 2

I’ve been busy, honest, working on drawings and sculptures for the circus piece as well as drawing every day and continuing with VR stuff.

I added four drawings to the circus

, this is one…

circus pastel 1 of 4

circus pastel 1 of 4 pastel on paper A1

I made some of the elements in VR using masterpiece VR and reduced the polygons in 3ds Max to take them into Unity.

I’m also making the harlequin, juggler and tumbler in plaster, the harlequin is the tallest piece standing at about one metre.

I had another early morning revelation about drawings I’d made that might be good to create in masterpiece VR so I started a few of these, I’ve made a new gallery

for the drawings – an old sketchbook that I’d buried as inadequate – so that I can view them in VR as guides when I build.

This is a film of one of them in VR.

I’ve also been looking through the camera trap I have in my garden, a few days ago I got this film of a fox.

I’m not sure what I’m going to do with this yet, there is at least a drawing or two in it, but we’ll see in time.

You should always look down on a circus

You should always look down on a circus

Charles Bukowski said “we’re all going to die, all of us, what a circus!”, at least according to the internet – I’ve got several Bukowski collections and I can’t find the quote. Bukowski is one of those writers who have hundreds of publications it seems, so it may exist somewhere. I read Bukowski because of the manner he works in, the continual production without, apparently, applying quality control during the process. It was my greatest frustration when I taught that people couldn’t grasp that creating anything works in stages and requires editing. It’s an iterative process. I also like the way Bukowksi throws out a thought and runs with it, following the route it takes towards whatever he ends up with. The quote above continues “That alone should make us love each other but it doesn’t. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing.” 

There is an obvious metaphor for life with the circus, the backstage (off ring?) living and the performative presence, the constant practice before the audience gets to see the output and the sense of separateness, of being in a community that does not belong to the general population, of being a way out. (Have I ever written a longer string of cliches?)

The circus, and it’s all a circus, should be witnessed from above. You should look down on the performers and the audience, freezing the action often to contemplate the ludicrous pirouettes and somersaults.

You should watch the purposeless gyrations and applaud, then make your choices like Beckett’s ‘Molloy‘  “[…] I came upon a kind of crossroads, you know, a star, or circus, of the kind to be found in even the most unexplored of forests. And turning then methodically to face the radiating paths in turn, hoping for I know not what, I described a complete circle, or less than a circle, or more than a circle, so great was the resemblance between them.”

Beckett, S (1979). The Beckett Trilogy. London: Pan Books Ltd

Sometime in 2003 or 2004 I made a set of wax maquettes for a group of sculptures and produced a couple of drawings from them. The other day, mid March 2021, I woke up having dreamt about one of the drawings and with an idea in my mind of a new figure for the group.

you should always look down on a circus, 2002/3 version 2

you should always look down on a circus, 2002/3 version 2

After producing a set of new drawings I set about finding the original drawings to compare to the set. The drawing above is the first one I found. I still have the idea of the drawing I woke up with and it’s closer to the image below but that’s not what I remember.

you should always look down on a circus, 2002/3

you should always look down on a circus, 2002/3

Both these drawings are 100cm x 70cm or thereabouts.

The title ‘You Should Always Look Down on a Circus’ is scrawled at the top of a each of two sketchbook pages that I found. I remembered the images were suggestive of circuses. Late nights watching Tod Browning’s 1932 film ‘Freaks‘  may have contributed to the feel of the portrait drawing, which I think was the first, but also the grouping of the objects and their interactions, including shadows, is also suggestive of a circus ring.

The new drawings started with a set of arches, referencing an unmade sculpture ‘acrobats’ from around the same period – Virtual Sculptures Gallery –

The large group in the centre of the gallery is ‘Acrobats’

tumbling 1

Tumbling 1


tumbling practice

tumbling practice



The dream suggested a set of tumbling arches and an almost tied knot that I’ve explored through a set of thirteen drawings, twelve A1 size and one 130cm x 100cm. The drawings eventually suggested a harlequin. –

Harlequin and Tumbler

Harlequin and Tumbler

Harlequin and Trapeze

Harlequin and Trapeze

I built a maquette for the group that I imagined and have since remade the original objects to reproduce the drawing that I had in mind. That drawing either never existed or has been lost.

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harlequin with tumblers

The first maquette ‘harlequin with tumblers’ made at the beginning of March.

I then recreated the original maquette from my drwings so that I could remake the drawing I think I remembered in my dream.

you should always look down on a circus, 2002/3 model remade

you should always look down on a circus, 2002/3 model remade

It’s a rough maquette but from this I did some more sketchbook drawings until I got the composition and then made the big drawing below.

You Should Always Look Down on a Circus (2003/4 - 2021)

You Should Always Look Down on a Circus (2003/4 – 2021)

I’m building a version of the combined maquettes as a larger sculpture, that will form another post.